Thoughts..

Hey peeps.. Back again to post about thoughts...

So now that we have entered August.. I must say that time really flies man... From the start of the year till now... I feel like many things that have taken place.. Has changed the way things are now.. Being a sec 4.. Its really different from the lifes we had last year and the previous year and sec 1 which is obvious.. But my take on this is that we all have grown and changed by abit or tremendously from the experiences that we have gained.. The kind of stress that we have now is really much more tight than the other years not only due to the O's but also the kind of expectations the teachers really do have on us.. PSLE really seems like a really small deal compared to the O's although the points we had from PSLE really make a difference in secondary school but I realised that I didn't really revise much for that national exams.. But now.. I know that the O's that we are taking is a stepping stone to our future.. This certificate really do make a big difference in our lives.. But sometimes.. From what others say.. What secondary school teach us may not even be applicable in the actual working life.. But I think that we are just learning the basics now so that our lives would be easier in the polytechnics for our respective courses.. Secondary school is also the place where we make new friends and foster new bonds.. I also do feel that secondary school friends do make an impact on our lives and the decisions that we make.. Polytechnics friends are also gonna be different.. But its gonna be a another different life from then on.. Right now.. I really do wanna focus on getting good grades for the prelims because the teachers said that this examination will be made close to O's standard(I think).. So this would be a very good benchmark for what we can expect for our O's also... I also hope that everyone would be able to do well for this prelims and get the kind of grades that we want.. So everyone gotta buck up!! I really hope to be able to complete my artefact soon.. Taking a bloody long time to finish it... Hope I can FOCUS on it man.. And complete it and the sketchbook too.. Solidworks should be easy cause some of my parts were laser -cut so lesser time is needed to finish up the drawings..
And lastly.. Before I end my once again long post.. Its just another thought that I had while having this thought.. Many times that I tried giving up on her.. Only made me seem like a fool.. As I thought that by trying to ignore her I might make myself give up on her easier.. But it only made me think more about her.. I don't know why but I always feel like I shouldn't give up that easily.. But it seems that there is always something that is holding me back.. I think I might be thinking too much but.. I always feel like that there is always something that helps me to get close to her.. The moot parliament is just a coincidence.. Running up the B block to pass my friend something and I had to see her walking alone down the corridor.. Found her wallet below the canteen bench.. All this are probably just coincidences.. It is probably just lucky for me that I get to meet her sometimes when I'm walking or just doing some things... I also can't help but feels like there is either something holding her back.. Or she just probably hates me that she doesn't even wanna give a damn about me.. But it is because she didn't wanna hurt me that she replies my stupid SMSes at times or even my stupid MSN questions? Its kinda contradicting... What to do... Can anyone tell me how to read a girl's mind?? Or just simply...Should I just ask her how she feels.. But how can I do that whenever I lose my courage upon seeing her face? We exchange glances at times.. I used to ignore it.. But now.. I cherish every glance that we have.. I don't mind the expression that you give.. But I just want to be there for you everytime you need someone..

P.S. I love you forever..