Boredom..

Hey peeps..

I think I have been kinda ironic these days man.. In the previous post.. I say its gonna be supposedly the last post.. But in the end.. This one came out.. Anyways.. It was supposedly to be the last one.. So.. This one.. Confirm last. Haha...
So today.. Was kinda bored.. ACES walk exercise.. Super hot man.. Make us go walk round the school area.. Then back in school already.. Was released for recess.. Then the brutality of receiving results was next.. So we went to the hall.. Got back some of our results.. Dammit man.. I failed my Science again.. But I managed to scrape pass through my English, Maths and Humans.. Which felt kinda good in a way.. At least this shows I made some improvements from Mid-Year.. Tuesday is a school holiday... Then Wednesday we gonna see the rest of the papers.. Then we had the Teacher's Day celebration.. LOL.. The emcees really need to seriously synchronise what they are gonna say with what is shown on the screen..
Then our cluster with the 4F boys.. We kept shouting to the emcees that we have the answers... But they didn't really bother to look here... Man.. They should really learn to broaden their horizon also... So after that.. School ended near 2.30.. I went out for lunch with Jiajun, IsaacK, Jingcong, Qirui, Ryan, Sean Siew, Jooxiang and Jiancheng at the Anchorvale CC McDonald. Realise I didn't take my pocket money.. Was peniless throughout the whole day... Sadly.. Then after that.. Qirui went to book his badminton court and then we went off to somewhere near Punggol Plaza to play basketball.. IsaacK left along the way.. Then Sean Siew too..
So.. I played with Jiajun, Jingcong, Qirui, Ryan, Jooxiang, Jiancheng, Hong Sheng, Cheow Heng, Nicholas Tan and Marcus. Had lots of fun playing while it poured occasionally.. Then I left around 6.
So back at home.. Kinda tired.. Decided to take a quick nap before dinner.. Then afterwards woke up went down for dinner then back up to slack.. I PROMISE.. THIS IS GONNA BE MY LAST POST UNTIL AFTER O'S!! A promise to myself.. Haha..

Tata~~

Well to end this whole post..
I seriously do think that you really do look like my idol.. Haha.. Anyways.. I think your results today should be kinda good.. At least.. Better than mine I suppose.. Don't stay up till too late anymore just to study... Rest is what you need more.. No matter what.. You ain't supergirl.. So you still need to take good care of yourself... Don't fall sick during this critical period.. Stay healthy.. Study is a must.. Rest also a must.. Anyways.. I wish you all the best for your studies for the O's.. Stay strong girl!!

Yippees!!!

Hey peeps!!

Well.. I am proud to officially congratulate myself for completing my DNT artefact and sketchbook yesterday!!!! WOOOHOOOO!!! *Appluase* Anyways.. Now that 3/4 of a subbie is down already.. I can now finally sleep early again and also focus on my other weaker subbies.. Feel so good to be able to let go of a heavy subbie such as DNT.. Whew.. So as the prelims has just finished yesterday too.. Coming Monday.. The school should be having a Teacher's Day celebration.. Tuesday supposedly is a holiday.. Don't really know whats on that day.. And Wednesday is a checking of scripts.. So can say about 5 days of study-less days(That includes today and tomorrow)?? Yeah.. So life has been real boring since the prelim days.. I'm kinda hopeful that my some of my subbie results are gonna improve by abit.. Some are just gonna stay at where they are and some are just.. Well.. Gone I suppose.. Keep my fingers crossed.. I'm also gonna start my revisions already!! Just gotta motivate myself to do so.. Since I'm having a mentality such as Garfield.. Its taking quite an amount of effort to move myself to do such things these days..
Yesterday.. I managed to relieve some of my moments as a Secondary 1 kid.. I played my PS2 from 10pm-3am.. LOL.. Can't believe it too.. And the game was NBA Live '07.. Oh man.. Still kinda fun.. Anyways.. This is supposedly to be my last post for this term till after O's I suppose.. Cause I don't think I would wanna be anywhere near computers anymore.. I finally gotta start CONCENTRATING on studying..
And to all my other schoolmates and friends that are doing their O's this year too.. STUDY HARD AND GOOD LUCK!!!

Tata~~

Before I leave.. Something from my mind..
I realised how hard it was to keep telling myself how much I don't love you anymore when in fact I still very much do.. But I suppose that you also don't sense it much as well.. But I think that this torch that I carry since last year.. Its kinda permanently stuck with me.. I can't seem to get it off.. I think I'm just gonna leave it as it is.. I don't know whether the conversations we had online is a sign of improvement between us or is it just that you just wanna ensure that I don't feel hurt by you not replying my messages.. Whichever way is it.. I just wanna tell you that in all my years in this school.. The experiences that I've gotten from the past few crushes.. This is something that made me sorta used to it already.. The only reason that I still seem rather concern about it is because.. This crush that I've been having.. Its been the longest and the deepest one I've ever had.. If we ever leave our separate ways from this school.. This will be the deepest memory I'll be bringing out with me from this school.. Its kinda ironic how things has happen throughout the years we've been in this class.. The things that I've said to you and how it turn out the other way.. Its kinda stupid but it just ends up being a part of our memory.. I think the stupidest thing I've ever done.. Was to say.. Those 3 words at the wrong time.. "And then I go and spoil it all by saying something stupid like I Love You.."

Hey PEEPS.

Hey peeps..

Im back!! Well.. For this week.. Its been kinda bitch.. Prelims ain't going too good for me.. And for some I suppose.. Today was a neutral day.. Got up late coz' simply I slept late the night before.. Then late.. Was reprimanded by VP. Irritated. Then with the headache.. Felt like stuffing her mouth with something.. Then go back class.. Rest my head.. Go exam.. MCQ was done rather simply random.. Then went home to rest.. My sis bought lunch back.. Half roasted chicken.. And with 4 packs of rice.. She then later realise my grandma was out.. So I ate 1/1/2 pack of rice!! WOOHOO!! Carbo power!! Then my S-I-L and my sis didn't finish the meat.. I took the honour of sweeping the packs clean.. Haha.. Pig man.. But was seriously famished from 7 - 1.. Then watched Discovery Turbo.. I realised it was super boring to be at home doing nothing.. Then I went to play Transformers on the PS2 till my parents were home.. I think when you reach here.. You're good.. Coz' its been kinda boring for today.. Haha!! So skip to important parts for today..

I GOT MY SONY WALKMAN WEARABLE DIGITAL MUSIC PLAYER!!! WOOOHOO!!!!!! SOMETHING THAT I'VE BEEN AIMING SINCE LAST MONTH!! Heehee.. Excitedly.. I charged it and bombard it with songs.. The sound quality is superb man.. NO MORE WIRES!! Yeah.. So I guess thats kinda all for today.. Won't be posting anytime soon since I don't have a com in my room anymore.. I'm in the PARENTS room.. Not safe.. Yeap..

SO.. Thoughts..: Well.. Its been a week already.. I think this time.. I fared much better than my previous attempts to get over you.. Its working well for me.. After some consultation time with my best buddy.. He told me about a certain attitude that most girls would give.. I feel that it sorta applies to you too.. With that.. I was more affirmed to forget you even faster so that I don't have to make myself feel so miserable every now and then.. Anyways.. For these few days.. Everytime you needed help.. I wanted to help you.. But then I often held back because I knew you would say you wouldn't need any help.. But in the end you still asked others for help or when others offer you their help.. You don't mind accepting it.. With that.. I know where I stand in your mind.. I felt so much better now that people every now and then telling me that giving you up was the best choice.. I bet this wouldn't even have made any impact in your life.. Your life would have been much happier if you didn't met me.. Maybe if the both of us didn't meet.. Our.. No.. Not our.. My life wouldn't have been sorta miserable.. With this.. I can officially say that its been a week since I extinguished the flame I had for you.. You should be glad about this..

P.S. So long.....

Boring Day..

Hey peeps..

Today was a boring day.. NDP was boring.. Not that exciting.. Then to liven up the environment.. Some of the hyperactives near the railings started to try doing the Kallang Wave which did manage somehow manage to go one round after many tries.. So yeah.. Then headed back classroom for this some sort of history video 'bout Singapore in the 20th Century.. 1938 to be exact.. Then had to do this reflection on whether wanna live then or live in our current 21th Century.. Of course choose this century.. This century so easily can do so many things.. But I was busy listening to the Morning Express on Class95 rather than listening to the video.. Then I got to learn this fact for ladies.. 'The average bra is designed to last for 180 days..' This was what the DJ said.. Don't know how true is it.. But I think is a interesting fact for everyone?? Or maybe not.. LOL.. Thats up to you to decide..

So after the NDP thing which was supposed to end at 10 but ended up at 1015 or 1030.. Then went to the canteen to met my mum who was one of the judges for the other secondary level for the Singapore Icon or something.. Chatted for awhile then she left for home while I stayed in school for DNT.. Anyways.. I recently spotted this NIE teacher (I suppose). Quite pretty! LOL.. I better not continue.. If not it might go out of point.. So then went for DNT.. Did SOLIDWORKS for the few hours there.. There was Jiajun, Isaac, Weehan, JingCong, Me and some other girls that I forgot who were there to do also.. Jiajun left around 3.. Only left Me, Isaac, Weehan and JingCong there to continue.. SOLIDWORKS is a *****.. I manage to assemble all my parts together already.. Then I wanted to try to put colour on it to render.. The supposed colour was blue.. It came out grey!! It was so WTF I almost thrashed the laptop.. So.. We did until about 5.30pm or so then we left the school to eat.. Then after dinner came home.. Bath.. Napped and Here posting..

So anyways.. Heres the thoughts for today..
Today I thought it might go abit well.. But I guess it didn't become as special as I thought it would.. Glad to see that you are completing your artefact soon.. SOLIDWORKS shouldn't be a problem with you since you have so many other people you can rely on to help you with it.. Maybe something went wrong thats why you rejected my offer to help or you'd rather someone else that you know better to help you with it.. Not something that I will feel jealous with but just feel a lil' saddened that you wouldn't want my help.. Its fine anyways.. Its probably because of me.. I thought that since we can't make anything out from this friendship.. I thought of keeping our friendship as the way it is now.. But I guess.. Its beyond repair? I hope not.. As I would really still like to keep the friendship.. But I think that given our current situation.. It would really seem awkward to return things back to how they were.. I think I know that the fact that I like you alot wouldn't seem to be affecting you much either.. But its affecting me quite alot.. I feel that I should really start to extinguish this flame that I have in my heart for you before it becomes into something that is much worst.. I think these are just gonna be the things that is our secondary school memories?? I guess you and I just weren't meant to be?? Or have I always been sensitive about such stuff?? Extinguishing this flame won't be easy and its gonna be a long process.. Even my best friend has heard this stupid reason over and over again that he just wanna stuff his socks in my mouth already.. Its gonna be a long process as its not gonna be easy letting go of the baggage that I have already carried for a year and seven months.. But still I'm gonna try.. Its better for the both of us this way...

P.S. Byebye..

No thoughts..

Hey peeps..

Today shall be kept very short.. LESS than 20LINES!!

First thing first.. Today super happy because I got the TOP in my BAND!! WOOHOO!! First time in my OWN HISTORY!! Grats to myself.. LOL. Secondly.. I FINALLY COMPLETED MY CAR FOR MY DNT!! WOOHOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!! Another Grats... So today is like double bliss I guess?? And tomorrow marks the start of our FINAL PRELIMS! Its gonna be the last round of drilling the school is gonna give us to prepare us for the O's... Don't really feel the mood for exams.. Guess I'll just take the exams as it comes.. Gonna hit the sack soon after finishing this post and about 2 chapters left of PHYSICS. Hopefully.. I can pass both my ENGLISH and PHYSICS tomorrow.. My PHYSICS mock paper results is seriously crap.. I WANNA PASS THIS PRELIMS!! Okay.. Shall go sleep soon.. GOOD LUCK PEEPS!! Will post again when I have a chance to use the com.. Haha.. Within 15lines.. LOL!.. TATA!!~~

.. I'm faltering because I believe I don't stand a chance ..

Thoughts..

Hey peeps.. Back again to post about thoughts...

So now that we have entered August.. I must say that time really flies man... From the start of the year till now... I feel like many things that have taken place.. Has changed the way things are now.. Being a sec 4.. Its really different from the lifes we had last year and the previous year and sec 1 which is obvious.. But my take on this is that we all have grown and changed by abit or tremendously from the experiences that we have gained.. The kind of stress that we have now is really much more tight than the other years not only due to the O's but also the kind of expectations the teachers really do have on us.. PSLE really seems like a really small deal compared to the O's although the points we had from PSLE really make a difference in secondary school but I realised that I didn't really revise much for that national exams.. But now.. I know that the O's that we are taking is a stepping stone to our future.. This certificate really do make a big difference in our lives.. But sometimes.. From what others say.. What secondary school teach us may not even be applicable in the actual working life.. But I think that we are just learning the basics now so that our lives would be easier in the polytechnics for our respective courses.. Secondary school is also the place where we make new friends and foster new bonds.. I also do feel that secondary school friends do make an impact on our lives and the decisions that we make.. Polytechnics friends are also gonna be different.. But its gonna be a another different life from then on.. Right now.. I really do wanna focus on getting good grades for the prelims because the teachers said that this examination will be made close to O's standard(I think).. So this would be a very good benchmark for what we can expect for our O's also... I also hope that everyone would be able to do well for this prelims and get the kind of grades that we want.. So everyone gotta buck up!! I really hope to be able to complete my artefact soon.. Taking a bloody long time to finish it... Hope I can FOCUS on it man.. And complete it and the sketchbook too.. Solidworks should be easy cause some of my parts were laser -cut so lesser time is needed to finish up the drawings..
And lastly.. Before I end my once again long post.. Its just another thought that I had while having this thought.. Many times that I tried giving up on her.. Only made me seem like a fool.. As I thought that by trying to ignore her I might make myself give up on her easier.. But it only made me think more about her.. I don't know why but I always feel like I shouldn't give up that easily.. But it seems that there is always something that is holding me back.. I think I might be thinking too much but.. I always feel like that there is always something that helps me to get close to her.. The moot parliament is just a coincidence.. Running up the B block to pass my friend something and I had to see her walking alone down the corridor.. Found her wallet below the canteen bench.. All this are probably just coincidences.. It is probably just lucky for me that I get to meet her sometimes when I'm walking or just doing some things... I also can't help but feels like there is either something holding her back.. Or she just probably hates me that she doesn't even wanna give a damn about me.. But it is because she didn't wanna hurt me that she replies my stupid SMSes at times or even my stupid MSN questions? Its kinda contradicting... What to do... Can anyone tell me how to read a girl's mind?? Or just simply...Should I just ask her how she feels.. But how can I do that whenever I lose my courage upon seeing her face? We exchange glances at times.. I used to ignore it.. But now.. I cherish every glance that we have.. I don't mind the expression that you give.. But I just want to be there for you everytime you need someone..

P.S. I love you forever..

Random Thoughts.

Okay.. This post is just gonna be about my current thoughts in the wee morning on a Sunday.

Seriously.. I think I can just go nuts thinking about you.. I don't know why but somehow.. Whenever I see you face to face.. Nothing seems to be able to come out of my mouth.. I just don't know what force comes over me and prevents me from saying it.. And.. Whenever I felt like I am gonna have the courage to finally go face to face and tell you how much I simply love you.. There would surely be another thought that comes to my mind telling me that all my efforts are futile because I always see you so happy being with other people and caring so much about them.. Though you are best friends with them.. I just can't help but feel slightly jealous on why can't I share the same kind of friendship you have with them.. And also.. I don't really know what happen between us.. But we just seemed not to be able to always communicate with one another.. I don't really know whats the reason why but I still think that it was always my fault who always started the so called 'ignoring' game.. It may not appeal much to you also since I also feel and think that you don't really give a damn about me.. Sometimes I also feel kinda foolish on why did I even think that you would even have the slightest or 0.0000001% that you might even like me.. Then I come to think of it as.. Why would you even wanna care about this fat ass that always seem to be injured so easily.. Then I dropped the thought of even asking you that question.. But when certain time comes.. I somehow think that if I was gonna ask that question to you.. You may accept.. I thought about this friday.. The most special time of many years.. A day.. date .. time that will never ever come again in our life time... How many times do one get to have such opportunities.. I then asked some of my closer friends.. They post me the questions that even got me dumbfounded.. ' Is the time ripe? '.. After some thoughts.. I felt like this chance only passes by once and I shouldn't waste it.. But after what I thought about 45mins ago.. I just feel like.. I shouldn't even think about something that wouldn't even work out.. I kept having thoughts on reasons on why did I choose on that day.. I had responses to them like.. ' I asked you today is because today is a special day.. date and time of the lifetime that we wouldn't get to see it again and I felt that it was appropiate to ask a special girl like you to be my girlfriend.. ' .. I didn't really think about how you were gonna respond because I thought that it was just gonna be like all my past answers... I don't really understand on how come you can become the girl that I can hold the torch for the longest in my heart.. Even my previous one didn't last for half a year.. And it wasn't because she rejected me but because of other reasons that I don't wanna state.. But you simply gave me a totally different feeling for you.. You gave me a sort of attraction that I feel no other girls could give me.. But the sound of your laughter and your smile can really make me smile at times.. Each time I see you looking so tired when I sit behind you.. I really can't help but feel like throwing a paper ball to your head and tell you to rest longer during the boring morning sessions we have with our CT.. You always seem so tired.. So many times that I wanted to care for you.. All these that I wanna do.. I didn't do because I always feel like you always had a group of best friends that can always care for you whenever you need them to be there.. I felt like an extra or a calefare who is always at the background looking out for you.. The competition that I have for winning your heart is not easy.. My competitors are people that I can never win.. Besides.. I never know whats going on in your mind.. I don't even know how you feel sometimes.. Its hard to decipher your actions. I always tried to look deep into your eyes.. But it doesn't tells me anything.. Could it be that you don't wanna accept me? But I always feel that you don't mind me sometimes.. Or could it be that you didn't wanna hurt me? But I'd rather you hurt me now then to keep me guessing whats going through your mind and actions.. I 'd rather that you tell me what you feel now and also the decision you would be making.. But at the end of the day.. The think that I wanna say is that.. No matter what the decision maybe.. Two thing is for sure.. I'm still gonna love you.. And I will always try to be there for you.. No matter how hard it takes.. Just don't keep me waiting..

P.S. I Love You forever.